As a woman, I find that it is much easier for me to find solutions that are emotionally rather than logically based. I talk a lot about what I am feeling. I base many of my decisions on what "feels" right.
This week my daughter started preschool. She is a bit young to start but her school has a class for younger children and her older brother is already enrolled. She had wanted to go for a long time so that she could be just like brother. However, when she finally went to class, the separation anxiety got the better of her.
I have stayed at home with both of my kids since they were born. It was a sacrifice that I chose to make for my benefit and theirs. It has been a wonderful experience. But, now I am working on career in writing and motivational speaking. I need a few hours a week to pursue that dream. In addition, my kids are getting bored with me and with the limited activities and playmates that we have at home. It was a long hard summer and we were all ready for school to be back in session.
When I drop my daughter off at school, she begins to wail. It pulls at my heartstrings and makes it hard for me to leave her there. This is, of course, the response that she hopes to elicit by such a show. When I pick her up, she is always smiling and excited. She can't wait to show me the picture that she made. She spends the whole car ride home telling me all about her day. Even though I know she is OK, her emotional display tugs at me. It beckons me to pick her up and never leave her at school again.
My husband, who has a pretty good head on his shoulders, has told me that she needs to stay in school. She is fine. All logic points to that fact. She needs the stimulation and I need the break. She is in school for less than 8 hours/week, a reasonable amount of time. It is good for both of us to have this break from each other.
I know that his logic is sound, I just have to convince my heart. The logical solution is to keep her in school for the good of us both.
Stay tuned over the next few weeks for the continuing saga.
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